Rhythmic Activities

  I admire you   for handing out your love   so freely  but please remember   that you're not a charity  stop volunteering your heart  to people   who give nothing back.

 A beautiful heartache- I had a though today, amongst many other thoughts. And in that thought I was just holding her with her head on my chest and staying still. And she asked- what are you doing? I, keeping my eyes closed; very softly whispered. I'm finally resting.

If you want to date an overthinker you need to understand that they can't control their thoughts and that it's not their fault. Try to be compassionate when you receive bouts of insecurities. They will question everything until they understand. You need to be very clear about what you intend to say to avoid confusion. They will dissect each word repeatedly. Be okay with making a lot of decisions. Overthinkers are plagued by indecisiveness. But once they decided you can't change their mind. You will also need to constantly reassure them that you're not going anywhere. Never lie to an overthinker, It will not end well. They will think about it over and over until it makes sense to them. And finally, Trust an overthinker when they tell you they love you because they have already thought of every reason not to.

I want to remember all of the good times we had, every memory that reminds me of the love I felt. I want to remember your timid smile hiding behind all your innocence, the love your eyes held every time they meet mine. I want to savour the sweet aroma of the joy you've left behind, in this memories of mine for life time. I've spent so much of me reminiscing of what I've lost that somewhere along the line, I lost sight of so much of what I've got. Our time was short and I am not ready, to accept that you're gone. I will continue to hold on to all the vows, read them, keep them close to my heart. Hidden away from the world safe and untouched, for just like the world once we built, they too are INNOCENT MY LOVE.  

For those of you that might be feeling stuck right now. Take the time to actually pay attention to things that have come into your life to teach you something. Instead of trying it to figure it all out on your own, recognise that assistance in nearby and the answers you seek are within you, your experience, god and your spirit team. Don't be afraid to be the student and ask for help. There is no rule that says we must sit alone and figure it all out by ourselves. You are not alone in this universe and beyond for a reason. For those of you who are feeling trapped in certain cycle or way of thinking, realise that you can change and connect to who you really are at anytime. It's easy for you to get wrapped up in the noise of the world and become someone you are not, but it's up to you to check yourself, and return to your true self and  WHAT YOU WANT...

It feels as its squeezing the breath out of this flesh,  This emptiness is expanding vast in my chest, Killing me slowly like a predator finding a quest, My muffled cries and screams are heard in my best, I am cluless to the saying,"is it meant for the test?" It's hollow and scary inside this hole of distress, Swallowing my soul and making me feel worthless, I am tired of pretending for this screen test, I am an actor of movie with dark sets, The heart inside is barren land full of sadists, I need love, affection and tenderness to solve this mess, I am lost in this world of imagination and faithlessness, I need a guide, a mentor, a real therapist for solving this mess, I am broken and repairing from the injustice of this world at its best, I am trying very hard to get out of this darkness alive and blessed.

 Wait for the guy who reaches for your hand on the street and holds it proudly. Wait for the guy who grabs side after stepping off the curb too soon. Wait for the guy who almost always places his hand on your thigh- in the cab, on the train, on the couch.A simple gesture communicates everything. Wait for the guy who makes the silence comfortable. Who builds your confidence. Who is passionate about you and what you love. Wait for the guy who makes you genuinely laugh. A laugh that lasts far after that moment has passed, when the happiness cannot be contained. Wait for the guy who introduces you to friends and family without fear. Wait for the guy who never stops trying. Wait for the guy who will continually put in the effort with your friends and family, knowing just how important they are to you. The one will always let you know how much you mean to him just without saying it.

Make your ego porous. Will is of little importance, complaining is nothing, fame is nothing. Openness, patience, receptivity, solitude is everything. Some people tremble the idea of being alone. I don't understand. I love my solitude. My energy is never leeched. My feelings are never hurt. I treat myself well, I entertain myself, but atleast it's peaceful. Being alone will always be better than being with someone who doesn't value who you really are!

  Don't underestimate the hole your absence would leave. Don't forget the uniqueness of your own magic. The fire in your heart was meant to be blaze fiercely. The world needs your spark... Your gifts... Your message... Your presence... Your JOY. Don't let your fire burn out. Don't let others who are numb to your flames make you think you don't provide warmth. You wouldn't be here if you weren't meant to be here friend. Fan your flame to keep going during these trying times.

 Hold on the night is darkest right before dawn. It feels bleak, nothing brings you ease. There is unexplained restlessness inside your chest. The pain is suffocating, it is unbearable at times. The pain is a beast and a big one at that, there's no doubt. But remember the thing about beasts is that they can be tamed. Hold on and keep on fighting enduring, do not give up just yet. A quote I quite like ;  "If you're going through hell. Why stop? Keep going." 

  She loved me a lot but I couldn't She kept on talking about me but I couldn't She always tried her best for initiating our conversations but I couldn't She made herself available for me in my difficult times but I couldn't She was mentally unstable but still tried her best for making me feel better but I couldn't She kept me on top of everything but I couldn't She made me feel special but I couldn't She managed to love me with all my mistakes and flaws and accept them but I couldn't Not everything is supposed to have a better ending, so leaving this here only...

 I don't give up easily. I fight for what I want. It takes a lot for me to actually give up on someone. I can't just throw all the hardwork and time I put into it. I can't just give up because times are hard, especially for that person who means so much to me. I keep fighting for what I want until I can't fight anymore, until giving up is the only option left. If someone is important enough and the odds are against you, you should still do it. "Holding on for someone is easy, Letting go someone is harder."

 That day my friend asked me- Why I can't stop thinking about her? Why do I eminently love her? What's so special in her? I grinned and replied- She cares for me more than I care for myself.  She suffer herself a lot to look happiness on my face. She sacrifices her peace of mind for me. She was there standing by my side in my bad times. She is contributing her dreams so as to fulfill mine. She will never leave me alone. She will keep loving me her whole life and so will I. She is world to me.  By the way do you want to know who is she?? Let me tell you she is my mom:)

'Hope', is to want something to happen and to believe that it is possible. Hope fills us with wondering joy that everything can be so good. 'Hope', it  is the thing with feathers, and bird is what you are...soaring high in the life. Hope dares to blossom even in the vile air. 'Hope', it is an expectation with confidence, to cherish a desire with anticipation. Never give up till the end, always try your best. If there's nothing towards east, then your dreams must be in the west. Hope is a good thing, maybe the best thing that never lie. So do not drop it out, good things never die.  Never lose hope as-                      Where There's Hope, There's Life.